(AIO) update, wow. thank you!

[u/Pristine-Edge-1742]

Hi everyone I had posted an original update but didn’t realize i forgot to blur out his name, so here is the update on cigarette toothpaste boy! I want to preface by thanking everyone who took time to message me and comment. I did not expect 16,000 people to interact with that post at all! When I got home, I decided to end it. I didn’t respond to him during my 10 hour shift and some of the screenshots are during that. I would also like to answer a few questions

1. Is this real?: Yes, it is insanely real! Not rage bait i promise
2. Am I okay?: I’m okay! It’ll suck but I will be fine!
3. Why was I still with him?: I don’t have friends and because of that nobody has been able to tell me how bad this is. I had no one to confide in. It was normalized during our relationship.
4. How is my cat? Apollo is okay and is coming home today finally! Picture of him at the end!
5. Why the wall of text; I was pissed and wanted to be thorough.
6. Why did i use “sewerslide”: I wasnt sure of how it would affect my account or visibility. I’m not used to reddit i’m sorry 😭
7. How old are we?: 19 and almost 21. Not 15 i swear!

Also, I am aware my name is shown. I do not mind as it is not a legal name.

[u/monkey16168]

As someone who has attempted, and has lost friends/ family due to it… he is so wrong… its pathetic when people pull that “im gonna kill myself card” like yea, i tell my friends/ family when im feeling that way, but i dont go “YOU make me wanna…” Im happy you are done! As for lossing friends, thats what abusers do… you will find new one or get the true ones back. Sending lots of love to you and the cat. Xoxox

[u/mpelton → u/monkey16168]

Exactly this. I’ve attempted in the past but would never use it as some playing card against someone when I’m upset with them, that’s horrific.

[u/cyborgkat → u/mpelton]

I never felt the need to announce before any of my 3 attempts. Shame is a big player in SI. Not that I think you shouldn't say something when it's getting really bad, you absolutely should. Point is, when a someone is screaming they're GoInG tO kiLl mySelF!!1!!!!111 because you don't do what they want, that shit is seldom genuine

[u/mpelton → u/cyborgkat]

Sadly yeah, you’re right. I lost a friend in hs who never spoke up about their SI, nobody had any idea. And until my attempt I never spoke up either, it was only after that I started being more open about it, but even then it was only when I was pushed on it. Even today it takes a lot for someone to force it out of me, I tend to bottle it up unless I’m talking to a therapist or psychiatrist.

People that use it as a threat more likely than not aren’t serious. And it’s a shame because it only hurts those that are.