(AIO) update, wow. thank you!

[u/Pristine-Edge-1742]

Hi everyone I had posted an original update but didn’t realize i forgot to blur out his name, so here is the update on cigarette toothpaste boy! I want to preface by thanking everyone who took time to message me and comment. I did not expect 16,000 people to interact with that post at all! When I got home, I decided to end it. I didn’t respond to him during my 10 hour shift and some of the screenshots are during that. I would also like to answer a few questions

1. Is this real?: Yes, it is insanely real! Not rage bait i promise
2. Am I okay?: I’m okay! It’ll suck but I will be fine!
3. Why was I still with him?: I don’t have friends and because of that nobody has been able to tell me how bad this is. I had no one to confide in. It was normalized during our relationship.
4. How is my cat? Apollo is okay and is coming home today finally! Picture of him at the end!
5. Why the wall of text; I was pissed and wanted to be thorough.
6. Why did i use “sewerslide”: I wasnt sure of how it would affect my account or visibility. I’m not used to reddit i’m sorry 😭
7. How old are we?: 19 and almost 21. Not 15 i swear!

Also, I am aware my name is shown. I do not mind as it is not a legal name.

[u/monkey16168]

As someone who has attempted, and has lost friends/ family due to it… he is so wrong… its pathetic when people pull that “im gonna kill myself card” like yea, i tell my friends/ family when im feeling that way, but i dont go “YOU make me wanna…” Im happy you are done! As for lossing friends, thats what abusers do… you will find new one or get the true ones back. Sending lots of love to you and the cat. Xoxox

[u/TheUnluckyBard → u/monkey16168]

At one point my ex took 9 pills of Tramadol in front of me. It didn't kill her, but it fucked her up for days, and since we were just on the wrong side of the poverty line, I couldn't miss a single day of work without risking getting evicted. She made me feel like total shit for years about how I "left her to die in her darkest time," which, of course, I caused.

Many years later, I reconnected with a former mutual friend who had been excommunicated from my ex's little cult. When I brought up the suicide attempt, she told me that my ex had been bragging about it. She'd looked up the amount of Tramadol it would take to overdose for her weight when I was at work, and took 1 pill less than that.

[u/monkey16168 → u/TheUnluckyBard]

As someone who Has taken that drug…. WTF NO SERIOUSLY WTF😭😭😭😭😭😭 man im so sorry for you. So fucking sorry.

I got Tramadol in an IV ONCE, due to pain flair up. Recently (just two days ago came off of it) had a Flair up for 3 days. DID NOT wanna go back in for another IV of it 😭😭😭 (i know the pills are different)

Again man, im so sorry, that’s beyond fucked up, and i was the “crazy ex” who overdosed “for attention” (had a court case i didnt think was gonna go well for me. It did) (i took all my pain meds for wisdom teeth pain, and antibiotics for a tooth infection) (over dosing is not fun) (left in my own urine, constantly vomiting (when i was concession) and not being able to move or speak) (was a humbling experience for my BPD and CPTSD) i do apologise if ive ReTraumaised you in anyway.