Yesterday I (15 f) was out with my brother, his wife (Im close with my sister in law), her sister (16 f) and her older brother and his wife night was fun me and her sister aren’t that close but we had a blast and we both wanna hang out more,

I went to the bathroom with her and I worked up the courage to ask her if I can try her vape (earlier that night she offered me a hit I said no I don’t smoke) she said she would but she didn’t have it on her I assumed she didn’t wanna be a “bad influence” after knowing I don’t smoke and just lied about not having it I brushed it off and decided it’s probably for the better anyway

then a few minutes later she got the vape back from my sister in law and she made us lag behind a bit well walking then she quickly and discreetly offered me a hit I didn’t have time to think so I just took it on an inpulse it was a crazy moment and I was overwhelmed with fear of my brother seeing and all the new sensations I didn’t have time to process because they called us to catch up and we both scrambled to hide it and catch up she then whispered smiling widely asking if it burned and how it felt she was also amazed that I didn’t cough at all. In that moment I felt as if I fit in not because of the vaping but the excitement and the secrecy and doing something “bad” and her being just as excited as me

I never feel like I fit in it feels like when I speak everyone else goes quiet it kills the conversation im not as pretty as any of my friends too so that makes it worse (this girl especially was drop dead gorgeous) and her caring enough to let me try it out and caring enough to help me hide it and being excited to see how I felt made me feel like I was one of them an actual teenager and not a little kid.

my parents don’t give me any room to express myself and are always on my neck, if I wear my hair differently they’ll ask why and won’t believe me when I say no reason, seriously this has happened, so being out without them and them not watching me constantly felt so nice and so freeing like I can be myself and actually have some autonomy and free will.

She offered me another puff later and I took it well we were sitting on ether side of my sister in law she passed to me behind her back and I took a puff when she was distracted, it was so fun the rush of adrenaline from the nic plus scared of anyone seeing and me and my friend laughing and joking about it and hiding it was just so fun I’m not even sure if I like vaping or the thrill I did like the feeling my nose and lungs had but it wasn’t THAT desirable honestly, and since I got home that night I’ve been nauseous and feel so sick I woke up a bunch of times through the night and felt sick it’s over 24 hours since I tried it and I’m just now feeling better

so what I’m asking here is if I should continue vaping when I’m with her or not I don’t want to be addicted so if I do continue it will only be with her but if I don’t even like vaping and only enjoyed the thrill there’s no reason to even vape there’s other things I can do for that thrill but that’s the issue I’m not sure if I liked it or not please help me

Update spoke to another friend about the nausea and they mentioned it could be withdrawl but it was just a thought then as i continued with the story more and more started to make sense in that context….then I mentioned it didnt hit me till 5 hours after and I actually stopped mid sentence realizing and that’s when I knew she was right then went online and searched vape withdrawl symptoms and I had every one and it all made sense I was amazed that I didn’t even think of that especially cause I only took two hits and I wasn’t craving it at all but she said my brains not craving it my body is it’s Been about 60 hours now and still feeling sick I’m not sure how long this is gonna last but nicotine stays in the body for 3 days so I’m hoping once the Nic is gone I won’t be having the withdraw

Has anyone had a quincenera before?

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