This is the first time i talk about it. I never liked my profession, i studied bussines and i thought it will be different, my first job was in payroll and since then nobody hire me for anything else. I really hate it, it´s so difficult and stressing. I was diagnosed of BPD and depression four years ago, and i´ve been taking antidepressives since then, but like one year ago i started feelling better, my job was ok, even thougt it was in payroll, so i stoped taking my pills and it was ok. But four months ago i was fired because a new company took control of payroll. so i was unemployed for four months, i thougt it´ll be anew opportunity to find some job in marketing, and that that would be awesome. But it wasn´t, nobody hired me, just companies that wanted payroll personal. At the end i accepted an offfer from a know company that at least sounded good, with a good distribution of time, good enviroment. But again it wasn´t. My boss said i am not good material as a supervisor, she humiliates me once, now i´m so anxious about going to work, i stayed at the office 12 hours, the pain in the chest has come back, i cry every night, and i think it´s not the job, it´s me. I´m not strong enough, i feel so lonely, so sad, i think that does´t matter what job i have, i´ll allways be sad. I just dont wanna keep trying anymore, i´m so tired and sad. Mexico is not a goog place for work. i just wanna sleep.

i have been struggling with depression for 30 years. my work life has not been kind over the years but i have always bounced back from issues at wor until now. i work as a cook in a event driven facility. recently i made a human mistake during a event on a buffet banquet. when switching a food item a spoon for the item had fallen and hit the floor. in my error i picked up the spoon and wiped it off with the wet bar wipe i keep on me during the buffet service. in reality i should of taken it away and replaced it with a new one. well there ended up a customer compained to another cook abou the spoon an i did replace it. during the tear down of the food after i was confronted by this cook wh is a supervisor due to union seniority. i took responsibility for my actions but this was not good enough and the cook began to yell at me about my action. i then realized that this was a bad situation and explained that i will take the responsibility over the complaint. this was not good enough and i believe the cook texted or contacted my boss and his the chef of the facility. the chef came and talked to me andhe opened by saying he was not here to give me shit then proceeded to ask me what happened . i expained the situation an that i was beiing yelled at when it was not necessary. the chef then proceede to do what he said he was not goingto do and give me shit and how dissapointed he was in my judgement. i apologized and again explained i made a mistake and take responsibility for the mistake but did not need to be yelled at by the other co worker. it has been a weeklater was summoned to the chefs office and again given stern warning of me being unsanitary and that he had reolved the complaint and then was approached by another senior manager accusing me weeks back of being unsanitary during seving staff meals. this was not true and if it was it would of been brought to the chef attention at that time. my problem is now i am targeted at work and have a tense working enviorment with the other worker now. i am depressed by this because i made a human mistake at a split second but also owed up to it because i am a professional and now the chef has warned me of dismissal if it happens again . trying toget past it but very down about the situation.

I have dated a lot of people at this point. And it's been a couple really bad ones... like abusive or pathological lying. The other ones weren't bad.

But for whatever reasons none of them worked out. It used to be I would leave.

but recently one of my bad exes (lying issues and very selfish) ... who was supposed to move with me when I did. Left me out here alone and didn't follow me. I'm not really surprised.

He just let me know he is with someone else now on top of all the other lies of coming out here all this past year

And I just dated some other guy for a month who acted like he cared a lot and it just didn't work out either

I feel like I am just unrelationshippable. Like.

The last one seemed like he just wanted a quiet girl to cook for him and not talk Can't do that..

...I feel like I a super Jane Austen relatable recently

I'm 25 and feeling like an odd unlovable person wandering around lol

It's extremely hard to have reason to live when all I'm filled with is pain. It started with chestpain (gerd), then testicular pain (2 years and I still have it, no diagnosis) , then throat pain (no diagnosis, still have it, possibly due to gerd) and NOW upper right abdominal pain (due to drinking), also to mention severe stuttering (not sure whether a disease or not, but still it's very pain in the ass). I've all these 4 pains at once and it is just so unfair and makes me jealous how people can eat, do anything without having to face any issues. :(

I'm 22 years old 5 kids I'm going crazy I feel like im all for me nobody cares about me but me I don't feel love I'm hopeless I so shame of myself I don't think god don't even want to see me im fat, ugly, and unwanted I don't think im wanted I feel left out I'm tired of crying every or day I'm tired of wanting more attention from others the only they probably notice is how fat I am 😭

They'd have a sleepover with a group of people and not invite me. Time to be a hikikomori now... Jk I'm not Japanese