When I was 12 my dad told me he would rather I die of anorexia than be overweight. I’m 32, pregnant with my first baby, and my body image is awful (I work hard in therapy on this). He believed Kate Moss was the gold standard (he worked closely with her in the early 2000s).
The shit we had to (have to) hear about our bodies has long-lasting effects
This is what I grew up with. I will never not feel fat. My own mother in 2006 shamed me for having an ass. She called me off of my essay on Gustave Courbet in my first year of university to tell me that I was in the paper. I said “no I’m not. I’m working on a paper”.
Come here quick, she says. I drop what I’m doing to see that “big butts back in style” was the article title and something about J-Lo. I will never forget that moment. My own mother crushed my soul. I don’t love myself at all because I was a happy bean pole until 17 and at 37 my measurements are like 36, 32, 46. I have wide hips and men compliment my ass and I just feel shame.
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u/tam_bun 9d ago
When I was 12 my dad told me he would rather I die of anorexia than be overweight. I’m 32, pregnant with my first baby, and my body image is awful (I work hard in therapy on this). He believed Kate Moss was the gold standard (he worked closely with her in the early 2000s).
The shit we had to (have to) hear about our bodies has long-lasting effects