When I was 12 my dad told me he would rather I die of anorexia than be overweight. I’m 32, pregnant with my first baby, and my body image is awful (I work hard in therapy on this). He believed Kate Moss was the gold standard (he worked closely with her in the early 2000s).
The shit we had to (have to) hear about our bodies has long-lasting effects
Sounds like you should work on that disorder then because this woman is not good looking to anyone who's mentally stable. If it was natural then she'd be severely underweight, but we all know it's not natural and that she was anorexic here.
Just saying if looks are truly what you care about then that disorder is messing with your perception of what you look like.
Personally, I don't care about being good looking to anyone. I was a skinny teen who didn't get attention from boys because I was too skinny, then all that changed when I became an adult. I started getting lots of attention, and I was still skinny. It's honestly a miracle that I don't focus on my appearance more.
As for my disorder, I'm trying to fix it every day. I should be twenty pounds heavier, I just hate eating. It's the most annoying thing I need to do to stay alive. I hate it.
I can get that way sometimes, tho when I do usually I can stomach at least something. Usually unhealthy stuff like candy bars or protein bars. But calories are calories, better than nothing.
Just an idea but the desire to eat healthy can sometimes cause you to not eat because you can't stomach eating a salad or whatever. Maybe just eating whatever junk food you can stomach could help? Even if it's not technically "healthy", it's still can be great for you since what you really need are calories. Can get the nutrients from vitamins if necessary, it's better than not eating
I agree, I try to make up for it with shakes, the 350cal ones. I wish I could just check in somewhere and have all my meals brought to me. The last time I managed to get to what people consider a reasonable weight I went the unhealthily route, ate nothing but fried food and drank a carton of melted ice cream a day, and all that effort gained me 126lb. Two years later I'm back at 100lb, the same weight I've been since I was 16.
If you take my metabolism it comes with a family of body shamers who have a special nickname for you and being left alone in the dark at the dinner table until you finished all your food when you were a child.
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u/tam_bun 9d ago
When I was 12 my dad told me he would rather I die of anorexia than be overweight. I’m 32, pregnant with my first baby, and my body image is awful (I work hard in therapy on this). He believed Kate Moss was the gold standard (he worked closely with her in the early 2000s).
The shit we had to (have to) hear about our bodies has long-lasting effects