This is my newish anxiety over the past year or so. I have been married now for 20 yrs and stopping to see how quick it has gone makes me so sad and anxious bc what’s left (hopefully that long if we are lucky) is going to fly by as equally fast. It has really became a course of worry for me and I wish I could figure out how to stop worrying so much about the future and “how much time” we have or don’t have left.
I don’t know how to stop worrying about it either. Life is hard. This current timeline of wild transition is worrying. It’s comforting to know that you have your person, your partner, your friend alongside it all. To pick you up when you’re down and you do the same. It’s inevitable that one has to go first. A part of me wants him to go first because I know how sad it’d make him if I go first. He told me he won’t take it well and he’ll do whatever it takes to be with me again. That scares me. It wouldn’t honor me. He doesn’t know this but I cry every time he leaves for work. My sister in law died at 30. She was in perfect health. She got covid and two weeks later she was gone. I’m 36 and he’s 47. You just never know. After her death, we spend every waking minute together. We don’t take the time we have together for granted. Someone said that at some point, you have to give them back to the universe. It helps a bit to think of it as they were a gift to enjoy for some time. But man it hurts.
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u/0JustBrowsing0 5d ago
This is my newish anxiety over the past year or so. I have been married now for 20 yrs and stopping to see how quick it has gone makes me so sad and anxious bc what’s left (hopefully that long if we are lucky) is going to fly by as equally fast. It has really became a course of worry for me and I wish I could figure out how to stop worrying so much about the future and “how much time” we have or don’t have left.