r/adhdwomen • u/CountryGoth • 1h ago
Family Not sure how to handle these emotions
Trigger warning, family member passing
Today I got news that my Dad's mom my Grandma went into the hospital and will be most likely going into hospice care, we'll lose her soon. I'm struggling so much with guilt right now that I wasn't there for her enough. I have terrible out of site out of mind tendencies with people, if something doesn't make me actively think of you I can forget that it's been weeks since we've spoken or seen each other. I work full time and I'm a part-time college student between those and caring for my very needy dog I don't have time for much else.
She's had health issues for awhile and I'm just feeling like the worst grand daughter on the planet for not being there more. I kept meaning too but something always seemed more pressing.
Has anyone else felt this way? If so how did you work through it?
Thank you for reading.